It's like I was lacking a stack of attack in the back of my head
I was blazed and my eyes were red
Pointless I'm dead disappointed
But pointing to better resources of help instead
Hanging by thread, that's why they criticise smoking the Z
Cause it put me to bed
No gateway drug I was easily led
Everyone's words flew over my head as I
Slipped into the same old shit
Cause progress seemed so slow
Climbing an uphill battle still slowing at all distractions
From my passion like I was lacking something I needed to know
When tactics lack impact and you're brain isn't intact
Your head never relaxes, it's backwards
I always wanted to train to do gymnastics
But it wasn't quite the same, having a brain that does backflips
I got sick of the bullshit
At what point do you compromise?
What happens to your ambition
When you play safe so chances of failure minimise
Fear had me down on the ground
But then I chose to fight it
Took the hook it had in my back
Grabbed it's throat and fucking sliced it
Tried life the way they see it
When they all talk that shit it's easy to believe it
From now I make sure I stand proud
Hold myself accountable I pulled my head out the clouds
There's been a recent shift of focus
And now the only way to stop me is to kill me
I don't hear doubts I won't be discouraged
It's like it's wired in peoples brains like they're cold blooded
People will talk their shit
But I refuse to live as if I don't exist
It's been hard but shit's been worse
Could've killed myself and finally left earth
Glad I didn't, I'm turning it around
Found what's fucked up and burning it to the ground
It's about taking back control of whats mine
If I've beat myself, my own worst enemy
What do you think you can do to me?
You'd have to kill me but I'd still die smiling
Battles I will lose but I will die fighting
Days used to blur together, colours seemed so dull
A soul without the fire, til the day I took back control
Here's my blood you fucking cunt, here take this too!
Since you wanna take bites out of the things that I do
Your talk is cheap, your mouth must be filthy
The only way to stop me now is to fucking kill me
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